I'm pretty spent, considering that from Thursday night to this very day (in fact I only have a few minutes for this) I've been working on two commercials simultaneously, both product freight scenes (the money shots). To give you an idea, I worked the whole of thursday on the 1st one partially until 1am friday, then from 1am-6am the same day I worked on the second one which had a presentation set at 10am only to find that it was moved to 5pm which in turn made me growl, and race to the finish for the 1st commercial which had a presentation at 1pm. I was like...sana naman I had worked straight for the 1st one if that's the case na hapon pa pala yung second.
I slept on my hand at a desk at 6am, and asked mom to help wake me by 830. I woke up and my hand was dead it was cold, clammy and it couldn't feel a thing. I squashed the veins apparently and circulation hit a bottleneck. I shook it for the life of me...
Throughout all this, I was overwhelmed and beating myself up for being so...telling myself I would make it, if only my eternal Director believed in me.
The minute I woke up from that table, new strength was in me, I had just enough to continue preparing the second one with time to spare, but the first one for 1pm really pushed me to my limits.
Imagine that the director for your 1st commercial is coming for a pres and has to leave in an hour for an international flight so you can't be late in presenting. I made it by a hair's breadth, of course with my art director, coordinator, and marketing person breathing down my neck as I desperately clattered over my keyboard trying to fix the scene (because it's their job talaga so no big deal). I'm actually proud to be supervised by an art director who is not just a fine arts major but has a degree in physics, too, sometimes you think it's a pain when you're tired coz there's no cheating his eye but you realize what kind of edge you have with his expertise and his knowledge of how something in a scene should really look or react. In the end, nakakabless. "Jules render na, render na, ay ayusin mo ito..." fatigue can sometimes make you feel like crying as opposed to if you had 8 hrs of sleep, well I didn't, but the stress crawled up my neck. The whole time I thought "I render unto You...I render unto You. I can do all things..."
I remembered a really cool lady in church sharing about faith and the power of God's spoken Word. I thought to myself, He is the very First Director who knows exactly how everything will finish. She said "In the dark God said 'Let there be light' and there was light. Imagine mo if He looked at the darkness at sinabi niya 'Shucks ang dilim!' e di yari na tayo." hahaha! oo nga naman. "Lights, camera, action"...nothing happens until the Director says so.
The Secret is no secret, it is faith in Him not faith in one's self alone that makes things happen.
Pwes, I said "i'm going to make it," and I did, but not without help from my UGL team :)
If you chance upon this write up, please believe with me that my 2nd presentation this afternoon for both commercials (that's with revised material) goes well and receives favor. Thanks :)
